No Hard Feelingsby the Avett Brothers has been my solace for the past year, though at times I’ve had to skip it on my playlist because it almost always makes me cry. I lost my mother-in-law in August 2017, then my Mom in February 2018, and today my dog, Loretta. Yes, I understand there are huge differences in losing a pet vs. a person, but when one comes on the heels of the other it is just nearly too much.
The song begins “When my body won’t hold me anymore And it finally lets me free Will I be ready?”
I wasn’t ready to let any of them go, but in Loretta’s case, I think SHE was ready. She had a good life and enriched ours in so many ways.
Then “When my feet won’t walk another mile.”
My dog, Loretta, hit this point so suddenly last night I can’t wrap my head around it. She was fine and peppy one minute, then lethargic and unresponsive the next. She perked up once for a few minutes, a sort of last hurrah I guess, then just could hardly move. My husband carried her to our room where we’d made her a soft blanket “pallet” to lie on. We finally fell asleep, but both awoke at 2AM to sit on the floor beside her as she drew her last breath. I can only guess it was her heart giving out.
Listen to this song – more than once if you can. It is overflowing in meaning and may be a balm for YOUR spirit.
Today I went for a hike at Moss Rock Preserve with Loretta using mapmyhike – a super cool app I just put on my phone. I’m a novice hiker and user of this app, so excuse my exuberance, but it really is cool. It not only told me how fast and how far I went, but it also shows my route and the elevation! And this is the FREE app; I can just imagine what the MVP version can do!
One thing it could not do that my dog could do was find my way back. On the return trip, when we came to a fork, I was about to hesitate but she didn’t – and then I’d look up and see a tree with a red mark on it and knew she was taking us the right way. This got me to thinking how awesome it is that God created His creatures with such fantastic inborn abilities. She had never been on this trail before; in fact she’s done very little woodland hiking. I assume it was her ingenious sense of smell that told her where to go.
I am excited to use my app again. It is encouraging to me since I don’t often have anyone to walk with. I think it’s the motivation I need!
Let them praise the name of the Lord: for he commanded, and they were created.-Psalm 158:5
Thou art worthy, O Lord, to receive glory and honour and power: for thou hast created all things, and for thy pleasure they are and were created.- Revelation4:11